Hey guys, sorry this was so late. I felt like I was back in school trying to turn in a school assignment by 11:59. I was hoping to get this done this morning but I guess this will have to do. Today’s post is going to be a bit personal again and I do apologize for that. I try not to write about myself as I am sure there are more interesting things you would rather read about. And that’s perfectly fine with me. This week has been a week of insight and self discovery. It was a week of wrestling with my own inner demons, shadows and self doubt. And it’s been a week of having a clearer vision of myself.
As I am sure you know, writing has been a major constant in my life. That and reading. I’m sure I have shared this with you before but my first novel writing attempt was made when I was around eight years old. It didn’t go any where and it was very poorly written, but it was still a story I had written on my own. I was quite proud of it too. Many other story ideas followed but they never panned out. But I never stopped writing. Writing was there for me through the constant changes of life. Through growing up and moving across states. It never left. Writing has brought me peace in a world filled with chaos.
This caused me to change the way I think of writing. It used to be something I did on the side. Something I did while I worked, hoping to publish my book while balancing school and a career. It was a hobby that was increasingly pushed to the side while I focused more on everything else. Everthing else however, did not make me happy. It did not give me a sense of accomplishment,but writing did. In this world we are told to be practical. Do what makes money. Only go to school in a field you know you can get a job in. And while that may be perfectly acceptable for some it is not meant for everyone. We are too diverse, each of us too unique for that to be the fate of us all. I don’t think it was meant for me.
I had imagined being a writer, and only a writer all my life. That dream had always been in the back of my mind but I kept it there, where I thought it belonged. “Who was I to think I could be a writer?” I asked myself all the time. “Who was I to think my writing was even 1/100 as good as the many writers in the world?” So I listened to the criticism and the negative voices from myself and others and I let it beat me down. Down until y dream began to hide deeper and deeper inside me, only coming out in the off chance I would be receptive to it. But in the last few months I have been re-evaluating everything about my life, and one of those things was what had made writing become a hobby for me when it had once been so much more.
Guys I have decided to take my life and make of it what I can. I have decided to put my heart and soul into writing. I have decided to do what some would foolish and impractical but to me it makes all the sense of the world. It’s probably the scariest thing I have ever done but I believe it is the rightest thing I could ever do. I am taking a giant leap of faith and jumping into a future of uncertainity and the unknown, but I am ready for it.
What about you? Is there a dream you had that you convinced yourse wasn’t worth following? Don’t give up on it. Not if it’s the one thing that will bring you the most joy in life. Don’t think of it as selfish or self seeking. Think of it as you living the one life you are given to the utmost capability. We were born for some much more than this.
Please watch this inspirational video by Spangler Sgribbles and Take the Leap . Don’t let the negative voices of yourself and others prevent you from doing what you are meant to do. People might call you crazy. They might mock and judge you but they’re not living your life. You are. Some of the best psychologists talk about reaching your true potential and how most of us never do. This may sound cliche but it’s true. Most of us never reach our true potential and there’s nothing wrong with that. But don’t let it be because you never tried. Try, even when you get knocked down; even when you fail. Try and keep getting back up. In the words of the world famous Babe Ruth, “Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.” I believe in you guys and you should too. Have a great week and whatever it is you do I know you will do great at it.